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fud-pucker : 1234 Space Blvd[I'm just a kid... and life is a nightmare] June 08 it means much to meJuwita Suwito
Breath Again
Have you wondered how it feels when it’s all over Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new Never knowing where you’re going When you face a brand new day It used to be that way Now I just close my eyes and say I just want to breathe again Learn to face the joy and pain Discover how to laugh a little cry a little,Live a little more I just wanna face today Forget about the woes of yesterday Maybe if I hope a little Try a little more,I’ll breathe again Starting out again is never easy Disappointments come and go but life still moves on With a bit of luck It’s a brand new start That might just work my way No need to walk away Don’t want to live on life replay Things will work out fine If you can find the courage to look past the night To see the break of dawn May 11 NadaI realized the more I go after something I want, the further it goes away from me, the harder i try to hold it in my grasp, the faster it slips away. So now i'm just going to live my life and convince myself that there are more to come and the next time around, it'll come to me. Anyway, I wrote this out of the blue yesterday.
I lay looking at the stars
Counting the days passed me by
When all i need is time
I remembered when
I hold my pen in anticipation
As flexing vocabulary runs right through my head
I was searching for a key
to unlock the predicament treasure
that lay deep in the aching cove
waiting to be found
How could one write out a thought,
pen it down so perfect,
unmarred,
and yet with the distractions of buts and ohs
Lost in confusion,
Lost in perfect twists,
Lost in beautiful enigmas,
Left unanswered,
gorged in the crack of undeserved places
in serenity,
Dampened with the dew from the beautiful dome
Heaven has been away for to long,
I have come to understand the way it is
and the colourful reminiscence life brings
Awaken and triggers my emotions
Like a man grasps for his last breath
Like a toddler cries with a simple longing
Like disputes and brawls cannot meet its truce
haunting,
bleeding,
crying,
it doesn't come,
it waits,
it scatters,
it goes
and vanishes
in vain
My torniquet. February 23 FreedomSo, I’m gon’ close my eyes, And I’m gon’ live my life Despite what you think, I’mma be free ‘cause I’mma be me. See, I ain’t never think I would have a situation Where the people around me just envy, I must replace ‘em. See, I always thought the people that watch me grow, Would wanna see me blow, fa’-sho, But little did I know. They ain’t never really wanna see me smiling, They couldn’t take the fact that I was really shining. And in my heart, I knew they was wishing I was stop, ’Cause they don’t me to rise and be on top. And all that jealousy and hate, Could be right in front of your face. And it’s gone hurt for you to see, but it ain’t your fault, just let it be. See, everybody wanna have something to talk about, So they pointin’ their fingers and always runnin’ their mouths. No matter how you try to satisfy someone else, Givin’ so much of yourself, yo’ love, but it’s never enough. The more you give, the more they want, and they ain’t happy. And they don’t see all you do to make ‘em happy. They don’t appreciate it ‘till you walk away, But you don’t wanna hear by now it’s too late. See, what they don’t understand is That I’m a keep livin’ my life and survivin’, And I’mma keep pushin’, and strivin’, and climbin’, and grindin’. ’Cause ain’t no time to be crying; I been providing with the strength to carry my way And I’mma be ok ‘cause I’m gone live my life my way,
You can say what you wanna say, it won’t affect the way I’m living. I’m winnin’ by being free again. November 20 sorry noteFirst off, i feel the need to apologize to everyone who has frequent my space because of my 'disappearance' i had to take another break. There has been too much of things happening in my life and much as i would like to share with the world, i have to reserve them less i'm the type that wears my heart on my sleeve, i pretty much keep everything to myself. ah but well what's life without challenges. =)
I'm writing this on the off chance for any blogger to notice but that's what i really want ya'll to know.
I hope everything has been going well with everyone outside here, my peeps, all the bloggers, keep it real and live life like you never live it before. You never know when's your turn. September 09 for ya'llThis semester promises a full programming schedule and it's been nothing but fun... yea.. right. I couldn't be happier than this though, this is what I been dreaming of, an opportunity to prove myself and move forward. As days go by, I've learnt alot of things, made mistakes, fell and rise again. Well, I wouldn't say I became more mature and stuff like that... but I thought life should always be a journey, well for me at least. We have to live it, fulfill it and discover it. It's ours and I think no one should obstruct us from achieving what we believe. I'm making use of every chance I have here to excel while enjoying what life has to offer. I want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me in becoming who I am today and know that without you, I wouldn't have amounted this much. It's the words of encouragement from all my friends especially Michael ;) , and also to alll my fellow bloggers.
Love you all...
Here's a joke I got from a friend, Michael.
 The Heberts were unable to conceive children, and
decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Hebert kissed his wife and said, "I'm off. The man should be here soon". Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer rang the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. "Good morning madam. I've come to...." "Oh, no need to explain. Come in," Mrs. Hebert cut in. "Really?" the photographer asked. "Well, good! My specialty is babies." "That's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat." After a moment she asked, blushing, "Well, where do we start?" Photographer - "Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch and perhaps a couple on the bed. Sometimes the living room floor is fun too. You can really spread out!" Wife - "Bathtub, couch, bed, living room floor? No wonder it didn't work for my husband and me." Photographer - "Well, madam, none of us can guarantee a good one every time. But if we try several different positions and I shoot from six or seven angles, I'm sure you'll be pleased with the results." Wife - "My, my, that's a lot of...." Photographer - "Madam, in my line of work, a man must take his time. I'd love to be in and out in five minutes, but you'd be disappointed with that, I'm sure." Wife (muttering)- "Don't I know it." The photographer opened his briefcase and pulled out a portfolio of his baby pictures. "This was done on the top of a bus." Wife - "Oh my god!" Photographer - "And these twins turned out exceptionally well, when you consider their mother was so difficult to work with." Wife - "She was difficult?" Photographer - "Yes, I'm afraid so. I finally had to take ! her to t he park to get the job done right. People were crowding around four and five deep, pushing to get a good look." Wife - "Four and five deep?" (eyes wide in amazement). Photographer - "Yes, and for more than three hours, too. The mother was constantly squealing and yelling - I could hardly concentrate! Then darkness approached and I began to rush my shots. Finally, when the squirrels began nibbling on my equipment, I just packed it all in." Wife (leaning forward) - "You mean they actually chewed on your ... equipment?" Photographer - "That's right. Well, madam, if you're ready, I'll set up my tripod so that we can get to work" Wife - "Tripod?" Photographer - "Oh yes, I have to use a tripod to rest my Canon on. It's much too big for me to hold very long. Madam? Madam? Good Lord, she's fainted!" Blogged out,
-fud- Get an advanced look at the new version of MSN Messenger September 01 Turn back...Some things in life aren't as simple as what we thought it should be, I mean looking at it in general, I think once you're adapted to live with your own set of rules and where rules are made to be broken, it makes you unpredictable. So, it's pretty hard to say if you're ready for a change or not. Know what 'am saying? Anways... Yeap, can't always do that sideway look and keep avoiding that one person due to some misunderstanding especially when you're roomies... gawd, I hate that word. I cannot write anymore or even consider in contradiction to what I rant in my previous post because what has happen, happens for a reason. I am glad it did and yes, I found a part of me where I could have long ago and 'am grateful for this experience too. I appreciate everything life and
friendship has to offer, why I say that is because for me, my friends are my family. They're closer to me. I love them all.
You can pick your friends,
You can pick your nose,
But you can't wipe your friends on the couch
peace out,
-fud- Get your ringtones, operator logos and picture messages from MSN Mobile. August 26 IRONY LIFESo I haven't been updating my Space and been spending lotsa time around school doing stuff... Ya know know those aliens I told ya all earlier about? The weird ones who just can't seem to stop sniffing at your ankle or die without having to dig ya ass for a day? Yea that's right, ANNOYANCE, BUGGERS, DICKHEADS. Issues? none. Just attitude. I am one lucky son of a bitch who has only ONE happy life with ONE phreaking WEIRD pal, yes I'm emphasizing that, "WEIRD" who doesn't know how to spell.... Remember Harry blowing up Petunia and setting her off in the air? I was gonna blow up, anyways. I find it amusing when the elephant actually trying to get even with the rat. Dam why is it always has to be me? Don't I look threatening to ya'll??? mmmmm So I tripped on something interesting today on the internet and it suddenly stimulated me fingers and I RANT. ALOT. This is the link to which I replied to. Yes, sadly he's my roomate Judging from the context I read in your blog, it reflects so much of the shallow attitude you have. I think I can even quote you sentence by sentence and shove them back to where the sun don't shine. What's the theme of your article again, friend? or I'm-a-sucky-friend? I think the latter one sounds better. Once again, I think your approach to things are very much lower than what I expected and if it went any more lower, I'd trip on it. Do you even know what you're talking about? "It's just a game only" wtf is just a game only? You play DOTA like you game it but you don't play life and friendship like you own it. Why not tell the rest about what kind of a person are you all along? Since you like to "Tell the world" about the blogs you have, your self-promotion bash or the constant petty "achievements" even my retarded friend can do? Tell them about how selfish you are or the lame-y aura you bring along everywhere you go? Everything little damn thing that counts (according to you that is) does seem important to you isn't it, Dave? Why don't you ask yourself before you shoot me that question, huh? Who the hell say we're not noobs? SURE WE ARE NOOBS, we are infact are noobs in everything, that's why we learn, life is but a stage, a learning ground. What is it that you think you're so damn good at it, you don't need a shit to do with it anymore? "Come on, it's just DOTA." ----- Dave, if it's sensible enough to you, you wouldn't say that I think to get it through your thick thick (yes, it's repeated) brain, it's not about DOTA. fuck it's about your attitude. You, yourself said it, "just because I took over his place during dota" yeaa.... explain that. Go figure. I don't want to be lecturing you or tell you how to live your sucky life but I see whatever method you're using are just as moronic as the effect it leaves on other people. I just want you to know something, life is not always as it seems to be. You learn things in your own sucky way, so don't..., DON'T even think about trying to implement it to others. Anything, just about ANYTHING at all..... be it newcomers to the college who's getting around Izone or noobs as you say trying to play DOTA. Because I went there and survived through it. Thanks to my consciousness and curiousity which actually saved me from being killed, yes LITERALLY.... See how dangerous you are? Your reputation goes before you and realize the damage you bring and spread on before you even do anything, oh wait... don't even think about doing it. The tone of which you presented your case sounds as if the whole damn world owes you, you know? You portray yourself as this one perfect, flawless guy who gibbers, yada yada yada..... What's VANITY? I don't see how that word fits into the sentence? (Imagine me chokin with my hands on my neck hearing that) What's SENSITIVE? I don't see why being sensitive is a bad thing Only those insensitive, thick faced, fucktards and A-holes who thinks his ass owns the world are still breeding away like you waste and scum of the society, dregs of my dogs vomit and unworthy to the precious amoeba that is actually capable of saving the world from being exterminated. Wait an eternity, wait like there's no tomorrow.... I've had it with you. Backstabber fuckwad, Desperate bitch, please my ass, cunt whore. Go suck donkey balls and get horse-fucked. SUE ME, BITCH My advice AS A FRIEND? K-I-L-L Y-O-U-R-S-E-L-F
Get an advanced look at the new version of MSN Messenger. August 17 Search it, babyDid ya'll ever notice that you can actually see who visited your website before? It all ranges from our fellow bloggers on MSN to the searches users typed in search engines. I never knew that my blog was one of the dirtiest and horniest site of all porn sites you can ever find on the net. Seriously...!!!
Ever since we played that game on pussy and cock, searches has all been directing all the weird names to my site, sometimes listing it on number two after dictionary.com.... lol lol
I first knew about it from Renee and I didn't pay much attention to it because the term, fud-pucker wasn't that famous besides that online auction site and a restaurant and of course my blog. So, right after my whizzzzz in the University, I took a peek on my stats and WOAAA.....
These are examples of searches I found on who visited my blog;
1)penis,penis,penis repli-kate
2)nightmare cock dick
3)funniest dirtiest blog
4)longest cock
5)longest cock on earth
6)cock rider
7)Child pussy picture
8)big cocks
9)big hot cocks
10)police cock
Prepare for the next funniest one;
Crouching penis hidden pussy....
Anyways, check it out yourselves and have a laugh...!!!!
Here's something I found online...
A fellow with a bad cough comes in to the pharmacy, walks up to the counter and asks for the pharmacist.
A young clerk tells him that the pharmacist is not available. The man asks the young clerk if he can recommend anything for his cough
The clerk gives him a bottle of some medicine for his cough. The customer takes a big swig, then after a few minutes, with no apparent relief, he takes another and another.
In a short while, the pharmacist returns, and sees his old friend, the customer with the cough, sitting quietly in a booth near the soda fountain. He says to his clerk that the fellow has never before stopped at the soda fountain.
The clerk proudly tells the pharmacist the story of his transaction
The pharmacist looks at the recommended medication and angrily reprimands the clerk for recommending a laxative, instead of cough syrup.
The clerk reminds the pharmacist the whatever the mode, the medication was effective. The pharmacist replies, "Now, he's afraid to cough!"
Peace out,
-fud-
Find love online with MSN Personals. August 15 SHAKE IT (wait, what's that gotta do with what I'm going to write? anyways....I'M STILL ALIVE....!!!
It's been a loooooooong ride since I went back to school, a big time killer I tell ya, phew boy, am I glad it's all over, my first term exam that is and I still got another what, 8 terms to go? lol lol Say a little prayer for me, aaight ;) If I knew it was this hard, I would have went back to motor-riding and hacking pcs in my haven. lol lol but anyways...
So, I spent the holidays with haze and weird people around me. I need a break, people...!!! It seems there was a fire in Indonesia's forest and the wind was blowing the smoke our way... I didn't knew about that until I saw everyone was wearing masks in town and I was like... woa, what, mad cow disease on strike again? I pull through without a scratch though.
I'm sorry I haven't been on that long and yessssss I do miss ya all...!!
Thank you for the lovely messages and keep rawking, people...!!!
I have to tell ya I wouldn't be able to update my space that much but will definitely put on something for ya'll to laugh hehe
Meanwhile BEHAVE yourself and stop playing with that thing ok. ;)
PEACE OFF
Chill,
-fud- Block pop-up ads with MSN Toolbar. July 21 GooooooD News.....Heya everyone.....
I'm sorry I made ya'll cry but will definitely bring back all the laughter too...!! lol
Sorry I haven't been around lately because I am sitting for my finals right now and will be back in full swing after next week....!!!
Boi, am I glad it'll all be over then.....
Meanwhile, know that I will be watching everyone of you guys and keep it rawking, honeyzz..... :D
Take care now and BEHAVE..... yea... like you will... but anyways...
Chill,
-FuD- Find love online with MSN Personals. July 07 Sad....A story I got in one of my mails I would like to share with everyone.....
Message: My mom only had one eye.
I hated her... she was such an embarressment.. my mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for the money we needed she was such an embarressment. There was this one day during elementary school.. It was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarressed. how could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school... "Your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me. I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so i said to my mom, "Mom.. why dont you have the other eye?! If you're only gonna make me a laughingstock, why dont you just die?!!!" My mom did not respond.. I guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time.. Maybe it was because my mom hadnt punished me, but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very badly. that night... i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, then turned away. Because of the thing i had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. so i told myself that i would grow up and become successful. Cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.. then i studied real hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence i had. then, i got married. I bought a house of my own. Then i had kids, too.. Now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesnt remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when.. What?! Who's this?! ...it was my mother... ..still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. and i asked her, "Who are you?!" "I dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. i screamed at her," how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!" "GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" and to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address," and she dissappeared out of sight. Thank good ness... she doesnt recognize me.. I was quite relieved. I told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me... One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. so, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, i went. after the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground. but i did not shed a single tear. she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me. My son... I think my life has been long enough now.. and... i wont visit Seoul anymore... but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much.. and i was so glad when i heard you were coming for the reunion. but i decided not to go to the school. ...for you... And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarressment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, I couldnt stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so i gave you mine... I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did.. the couple times that you were angry with me,.. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me..' my son... oh, my son...
P/S: Sorry but 'am extending my break till later maybe end of this month. I will be sitting for my finals in two weeks time, so wish me luck, people...!! Get an advanced look at the new version of MSN Messenger June 30 SIGH.....I passed my Database MySQL
I passed my Introduction to Java
I passed my Computer Application
I failed my freakin MATHS....!!!!!
I finished my 2 assignments.....
One late and another hanging on the dateline....
I gave up on my Community service
My organizing team is paralyzed... but looking good now....
I reformatted my comp twice and I forgot I have to look for the softwares....
I also lost my meeting minutes....
I missed the times I use to blog, blog and blog....
I missed my fellow bloggers....
I missed your comments....
And I also know you missed the results of the cock and pussy game you played.....
I need a break....
I need some room to breath.....
I need to get away....
I need a get away....
I need a coffee....
wait, I missed my laughter.....
I need some....
And I missed some nice shag toooooo....
I missed all of you out there and I love you allllll....!!!
Keeeeep rawking and stay hawwwwt...!!!
Chill,
-fud-
p/s:
I have a mate in school whom I manage to fud him into using MSN....
HE NEEEEEEDS SOME TRAFFIC, PEOPLE.....!!!
GO SHOW HIM SOME LOVIN', YA'LL.... ^^
  That's fud and Dave in the pic....
CubanFaery, this is for you....!! ^^
MWAH...!!
Chil,
-fud-
June 22 Taking another break.....Hey SpaceBlogggggerss...!!! Yup.... Fud's still alive.... lol lol but barely breathing... I NEEEEEEED SOME ROOOOOOOOOOOOM TO BREATH..... 'am sorry I haven't been a good boi lately.... :( I'll try to make it up to everyone here when all chaos is over, aaight.... I can't afford to fail this term and 'am working hard.... On a lighter note, amidst all these headaches.... 'am having fun learning....!!! So, I hope everyone, EVERYONE out there is HAVING AS MUCH FUN MUCH AS I AM..... =D And I haven't forgot the cock and pussy game we had.....!!! Well, wait for the results and be surprised.....!!! Here's for the laughter....xD MWAH TO ALL ME FUDSTERSSSSSSSS PEACE-OUT, FUD -------------------------------------------------------------------------- SPREAD 'EM.... =D
HAHA June 16 Taking a break.... from blog.Hiya everyone....!!! Sorry I haven't the time to make my rounds in Spaces... And if I missed the Happy say something nice day, I'll make it up to you guys later...!! Thanks for droppin' by and playin the game... ^^ 'am in the middle of tests and assignments so, Fud's working his butt off to get them gooooood grades... V Peace....!! Anyways, I will accumulate them entries and send them around my selected friends to do the judgement..... So, will post them results up next week... Meanwhile keep 'em comin in till Friday okay.... O and on the side note..., will be going away for a camp this weekend... yay...!! See ya'll on Monday... ^^ Take care and KEEP IT FUD-A-LICIOUS...!!! Chill, fud Search the Internet from any Web page with MSN Toolbar.
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